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“Laziness Doesn’t Exist. 2/11/2014
There’s no such thing as laziness. Only resistance, disinterest, and fatigue.
Think about it. The only time people use the word ‘lazy’ is when they’re trying to make you do what they want, or the ‘right thing’ – but it doesn’t mean you’re lazy, just because you won’t do what you’re told.
So what’s really going on? … Maybe you’re resistant to doing what you’re told.
Maybe obedience and compliance aren’t what they’re made out to be, and you really aren’t interested in being an active participant in your own subjugation. Maybe you’re too damned fatigued and can’t muster the energy to guilt-trip yourself anymore.
In a world where we learn at a young age we can’t take everything at face value and that the agendas of other people might not really be what’s best for us – in this world, resistance serves a purpose. It is not bad to question, to critique, to use your own better judgement, but somehow in the world of fitness we are told to just do what we’re told and good things will happen – and for some reason when it comes to fitness, we buy it. We are told disobedience is a bad thing – and maybe it is, in broader cultural terms, maybe if too many people are disobedient society as we know it will collapse, and maybe that’ll be a bad thing in the long term, and maybe not – but not doing what you’re told is the act of self-preservation and respect, when you’re up against people who will exploit your fears for profit.
And don’t think they’re in it because they care. Some people undoubtedly are, an individual may be, but we’re talking about an industry here. The reason it’s about weight-loss and some weird sort of beauty and not health – it only masquerades as health – is because they’re looking to make a buck off your insecurities.
If it really was about health, the language would be different. They wouldn’t tell you exercise is good because it makes you thin, they’d tell you exercise is good for you because exercise is good for you. That’s the truth. It’s the activity itself that does you good. Not this other thing that might happen down the track, this other thing we pin all our hopes on.
I could go on about attention spans these days, impatience and the promise of a quick fix and all that, but it’s a dull argument and again only amounts to blame-statements. It’s not helpful to think in those terms. Blame doesn’t call people to action. …
This is of vital importance. If you always exhaust yourself, if you push it all the time, this leads to fatigue. Fatigue is not laziness. Fatigue is what happens when you believe you need to kill it every time at the gym. Fatigue also happens when you’re training really lightly, but you’re not eating enough or sleeping enough, or you’re too stressed.
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Fatigue is subtle, and challenging. ..but you still might be too fatigued to train properly. You might have other stuff going on in your life, that is real, that does require your energy, and training might simply deplete your precious energy that might be better used for something else.
But doesn’t training give you energy? Yes it does, but it gives you a different type of energy to what it takes. It stimulates you, but it does not necessarily – despite what the ads say – nourish you. What nourishes? Eating and sleeping. That’s about it – that and meditative activities. That’s where exercise can be nourishing, but meditative activities are seldom gruelling – at least for beginners. Vigorous exercise costs energy, and it stimulates you to feel good. But if you burn yourself out, going for a six kilometre jog and expecting to feel good at the end isn’t wise.
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Maybe these concepts – disinterest, resistance, and fatigue – are all aspects of the same issue. If you are fatigued it will lead to disinterest. If you train when disinterested, it will lead to resistance. All these are ways of your body telling you that you need rest, and it’s when we need rest that we are most likely to accuse ourselves of laziness. You can’t motivate yourself? There’s a reason. Laziness is not a thing. Fatigue is a thing – even if you think you should be able to perform, thinking so doesn’t make it so. But laziness? I don’t buy it. Did you ever try to stop someone from doing a thing they enjoyed? Something they love? It’s not easy. People aren’t lazy. They might be resistant, they might not care, but that’s actually a different issue.
Investigate. …
Relax. Take time off. Try again in a week or two. Eat a lot, sleep a lot, if you can avoid working too hard, do so – if you can’t, just take a longer period of rest away …
And so, the cure for disinterest is finding small ways to challenge yourself that are fun, but aren’t too overwhelming or intimidating. Sticking with them, and progressing on to something else when it’s right for you. Give yourself a chance to learn, a chance to plateau, and then change.
You don’t need to be disciplined, not in the conventional sense. Discipline is not a prerequisite. It is a skill that develops over time, in response to training, but it is only useful if you are grounded by something else – if you can keep your sights set on what you truly want, on what serves you. Discipline is a tool that serves your freedom, it should not be used to police your own oppression..
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Even the desire to change, the desire to be free from suffering, this is a sign of self-love, of valuing yourself. You care for yourself, so you want things to be better for you. This desire does not conflict with the values and importance of self-acceptance. Accept who you are and work with what you’ve got, what you’ve really got, all the wonderful things you are, as well as the aspects you don’t like, as you try to make life better for yourself – in whatever way you can.
February 25: Update: I didn’t talk about disability, injury, or illness, and I kinda wish I had. I framed this post in a certain broad framework. There are other things that will stop you going to the gym of course, and fatigue is quite different from illness, though it may also be related.
… I also have diabetes, which led me to certain resentments at a young age which took work to resolve. But it’s also clear to me that I benefit – in life and training – from not being disabled. I am growing more aware of ableism in its many, sometimes subtle incarnations and the way ableist assumptions can manifest, and I wish to contribute to a culture where these assumptions start to fade. “
